Thursday, July 24, 2008
Going, Going, Gone
and heaven in a wild flower.
Put infinity in the palm of your hand.
and eternity in an hour."
Last night I purchased an airline ticket to visit my brother in a coma and in extended care in Salt Lake City, Utah. He 's been in a coma for almost a year now. I convinced myself that he was a vegetable and even that his spirit had already left his body, besides; I rationalize, he is not aware of any ones comings and goings so my visits did not matter. Plus my sister-in-law is mad at me for the insensitive things that I said to her on New Years Day, I said:
"how long are you going to let Doug stay in that condition?" Truth is I'm a coward and I didn't want to revisit my home and family.
They say you can't go home again.
The truth is you can but it's very, very difficult.
Whether or not to take someone off life support or in my brothers case just letting them waste away slowly or starve to death more quickly it is an explosive issue and thankfully it's not my decision! When life starts and when life ends who gets to play God. But circumstances lately with Cheryl have opened my eyes. I owe it to my brother to talk to him, tell him he is loved, tell him it's not his fault and to make my amends to him.
I've got a car rented and lots of time to tramp all over my old stomping grounds Wyoming, Nevada, Southern Utah and visit my little sister Patty, see her new Harley and beg a ride on the back and visit some old friends.
What did Shakespeare say? Meeting again is such bittersweet joy that I should say good night until the 'morrow.