Wednesday, February 06, 2008

What You Think Of Me Is None Of My Business

Wordy Raven
Price: 10 cents
Artist: Judy Vars

I have to tell myself this often, what you think of me is none of my damn business. Because often I worry a bit too much about what others think of me, simultaneously having a cavalier attitude that says, I don't give a damn what you think of me, and as a caveat to that, but just please think of me.

Sure I'll admit it I want to be loved and accepted for who I am imperfections and all, but lets be honest lots of people have judgmental attitudes. Like when I was eavesdropping next to my one of my Raven creations in the gallery, the lady told her husband in a real snippy tone of voice, "I wouldn’t give you 10 cents for it," Well how rude, and the letter I just got from the Anchorage Museum in answer to my submission, "We regret to inform you that your artwork will not be included into the second phase of the judging process," and then there is the person who says, "your art is improving," what the hell does that mean anyway? See what I mean? I'll write it 10 times for 10 days until I believe it. What you think of me is none of my business! What you think of me is none of my business!

It means be true to myself and stop trying to please other folks.
I ask myself, do I have my own approval? Yes! Am I being true to myself? Yes! Do I trust myself? Yes!

Although, I would like to know why Jari-Pekka Vanhala currator of the Kiasma Museum of Contemporary Art in Helsinki, Finland; passed on my art for the Anchorage Museum, All Alaska Juried Art Exhibition. He is giving a lecture on Wed. Feb. 27 and will talk about his choices. I plan to attend and get some enlightenment.

So Maybe a more true statement would be; sometimes what you think of me is none of my business. Because it's still all about me, and what you think about me,

is none of my business.

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